dania 2 dania

don’t wet me wrong…i just want to be like this.i want to feel my freedom.
don’t get me wrong…all i want is just a normal thing.a simple thing that everyone have.
a normal thing that i really appreciate.okay,,,,this is a big thing!

maybe noone remember what was happened today,last year…but i remember it, and i want to memorize it…just to tell myself once more, that my decision is right. i hope it’ll always right….coz today,last year…was a great clue for my future disaster (and it already happen now…)

dont wana regret it…just wana feel free now, and greatfull!really…
last year, i was crushed…now, i’m so happy….really! =]

i’m trying not to be so naive…

ni ko dania jadi ga banget seh?!mengapa diriku jadi gemar ‘nyampah’ seperti ini….?!
nampak lagi cukup suntuk, bosen, sneng ngbuang-buang waktu bwat hal yang ga guna.padahal…..sumpah!so little time so much to do!why cant i just do everything?!i messed up!

mungkin sbenernya dania lagi dikasi Allah waktu bwat sendirian, nylesein berbagai macem hal yang dania must beresin…tapi knapa skarang tiba2 rasa suntuk menyerang tanpa ampun?bosen yang ga ktulungan…mpe bikin uring2an gara2 bingung mo ngapain yang bikin dania sndiri ngrasa comfy.aneh banget dah!padahal…slama sminggu ini, dah banyak kejutan2 bwat dania…yang bikin flow dania naek turun slama sminggu ini,tapi, ko nampak kurang?!aneh!

gmana tadi siang uring2an nelponin my pals, bwat diajak maen…tapi dah pada punya acara.hux..hix…sedih.ya..tapi emang wajar juga.ga ngerti aja, sbenernya apa yang dania mauin.padahal…klo dania pulang ke rumah,balik ke kamar….sumpeh deh….!banyak bener…yang musti diurus

ni lagi bner2 ga ngerti apa yang dania mauin.any suggestion?what should i do?i thought i’ve just refresh my life.yeah!i’m doing it!but, it still hasn’t enough yet!dunno what i’m supposed to do…

rutinitas…gawean…suasana…orang…lagi bikin jengah.aneh…pngen ‘nyampah’ mulu…oh God!should i let this feeling?!

dont care if my heart feels the pain, i just wana share my happy face to everyone…

eventhou i’ve just found out somethin that hurts me more..and more…i just wana forget about it.just dont wana think bout me,myself

i’ve learned so much from my life..this’s the new beginning from the next lesson for me…

tu kan?!udah aja?!dasar moody….gampang banget naek turun!nampak dania butuh flow keeper niy…secara sekarang semangat sedang menggebu-gebu bergelora di dada hingga mampu meluluhlantakkan apapun yang menghalangi (euleuh2…hiperbola gini! XP) tapi..tu harus dijaga supay konstan.biar energi ga abis dijalan…juga harus ngbagi perasaan yang mnyenangkan ini.tau ga?ni pengaruh dari…’make over’ bo!berasa…beda trus aja tiap hari.huehehe…refresh abis dah!

Everybody can…I believe it.in what case?i’s depend on d’ person…

just like what i’m doing now…some people say…that there’s somthing different with me right now.do they wrong?!nope!not at all! yeah…i’m changing…i’m doing this right now.
i think, this is what i like…changing!make everything new…new friends, new stuff, new activities, new challange, new hair(off course!),d’last…new boyfriend, maybe!huahaha….

but there’s something that’s just the same….me inside.myself!everything just the ‘cover’, you know? but the content, it’s still me.i can change the way i look like, i can change the way i walk, i can change the way ………i can change anything bout myself, EXCEPT the ‘me ‘ inside…

it’s just the same…the way feel,think,see,hear…it’s just the same.i might say that the changes in my ‘cover’ is caused by ’someone,something,somewhere,somehow’.but now, i still cant change the ‘me’ inside…coz i still think that i cant, coz i think it’ll make me weak, etc

knapa siy?! still…something happened to me…it feels just d’ same as I ever felt before…still..d’ same case

mungkin cuman seorang…ato 2…ato lebih…gtau juga…ga pduli, yang ngerti klo dania ga suka sikon kaya gini.ga suka!sama skali!iiihhhh….!!!si gw benci…ada di situasi kaya gini!!!sing sungguh!!!

udahlah skarang mah boundaries dah ga jelas banget…ni sbenernya urusan sapa…yang tu mustinya ‘dia’ ngeh apa ga…berhak ngomong apa ga…udah ga ngerti lah.dania juga ga mau ambil pusing lah..mo diem aja. silence is gold…dania ikutin aja lah aturan maen yang laen…paling dania ngomong bntar, ngomong blablabla (i hate this!)…udah gtu, udah!beres!i’m out…i’m gonna leave…i wont take this anymore…nampak itu yang bakal disukain ma banyak orang.huhu..hehe..hihi…gtau juga.tebak2an aja da..

mungkin emang gara2 dania tipe orang kaya gini…mungkin emang gara2 dania punya masa lalu (chape dah..!tiap orang juga punya, gtu lowh…!!!)…mungkin emang gara2 dania ga ngomong…mungkin gara2 orang2 ga percaya ama yang dania bilang…yang penting…i know myself better than anyone

kalimat yang sering banget dania denger.skarang…makin tuir tu, makin ngeh!milih tu…bukan cuma urusan baju.smua juga harus dipilih…beserta konsekuensinya.kalo makin dipikirin, mungkin kita malah makin bingung…mau milih yang mana.untungnya apa kalo milih yang ini…ruginya apa kalo milih yang itu…dan laen2.

mpe segede ini…dania masih suka bingung untuk milih.dania perlu orang2 skeliling dania, bwat bantu dania.pertimbangan2 dari mreka…bantu dania banget.

dania lagi nyoba konsisten sama pilihan dania sendiri.susah banget loh ya…bwat konsisten.apalagi klo orangnya labil n moody seperti dirikyu…tapi,disinilah orang2 yang dania sayang berperan banyak. waktu dania lagi labil2nya…berasa di ujung tanduk&nyaris terjun bebas ke jurang yang dalem…banget,slalu ada ‘my guardian angels’.senangnya…’my guardian angels’ ga bosen bwat nyelamatin dania…they guide me to stick with my decision. =]

they remind me…they hold me…they take me to heaven…(alah…ga sehiperbola ini, kallee…XP}

dania ngeh, emang ‘the right things always happen in the right time, and right place…through the right person’….smua bakalan brubah, klo…waktunya ga sekarang, klo…dania ga di bandung, klo…bukan orang itu.

to my guardian angels….
thank you for giving me so much love
thank you for all the time we’ve been through together
thank you for your smile
thank you so much…for everything

…Thank God I’ve Found You…